Suicide...
Suicide is always present, for 5 years now since my life changed due to my actions, when i chose to leave the one person that made me and started to walk trough life on my own. Everyday i feel the darkeness of my soul, every day i light it with feeble candles...
Everytime i feel other than ok i consider it, everytime i look down i see myself diving in, everytime i drive fast i see myself swerving...
I believe it would be so much easier if it would just happen... The truth is nothing really important has ever happened to me, except for the common things most of us experience, love, friendship, work... Nothing truly great... Now that i've chosen a path of knowing myself, alone, i feel utterly hopeless and lost in myself... Suicide... It just feels ok... I've grown used to the idea and more and more i embrace it... I don't have intentions of carrying it trough tough, i still believe that life, given time, will solve itself and make me a happy person again, but sometimes hope just fades...
Suicide...
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