random thought #32

hard.
I'm thinking of the cliché 'It's harder to stay on top than reaching it'. I'm starting to get a glimp of what it means.
Not that i'm at the top, i'm not even half way, but i've fought hard to get where i am, and i am somewhere already. But i lack the motivation to fight further, wich means that i will eventually start tumbling down...
Life's hard, i reckon that some people don't have to fight for it, i, in the past for a few brief moments didn't have to.
These last years i've fought hard and worked my ass off for everything i have, all i have i earned it with sweat, blood and tears. Both in personal and professional. But now due to a shitload of unforseen circumstances i can't seem to progress, and if i can progress i'll regress...
Hard work, that's life. It's either that or settling, and i'm not one to settle, maybe i need to swerve a little in order to start moving forward again, but i'm sttuborn and i know i'll defeat this obstacle.
Hard work, it pays off in the long run.
Hard work, i need to stop bullshitting and get some done...
stalled...